Coloring with Nelson

I went to the San Diego Children's Hospital yesturday. I had to go see if i had serious scoliosis or not. Anyway, there was this one receptionist at the front desk. I seriously could not tell if the receptionist was a she or a he.

The He/She/It was a fairly obese person. This made it hard for me to see if that person had female body parts, because if it was a guy, I could have just been male breasts. I really could not tell. The hair was short (Very short for a girl), and spiked. The receptionist wore glasses, and had a rounded face. Nothin gave away the gender of this person. NOTHING. The voice was very feminine and high pitched, but with metros walking around, ya never know.

I would post a picture of this person, but I forgot my camera.

You know, there are some kids that really piss me off. REALLY PISS ME OFF. Let me give you an example.

There's this kid at my church, who's name starts with a S and ends with a -unbae/ik. Well, see, I don't know how everything got started, but this kid, for some random reason started to hate me. I don't know why, but this loser of a kid, started to make my "church life" as miserable as possible. Let me give you a description of "S-unbae/ik"

S-unbae/ik was born in Korea. He then illegally crossed the Pacific Ocean, and then somehow got to San Diego. S-unbae/ik was first a small, rat-looking skinny kid, who quickly gained weight. He quickly acquired the english language. With all things considered, he did pretty darn well. By age 13-15, he had the weight, size, and facial structure of a small manatee. Somehow, he gained the upper hand in church, and somehow, he got the other kids to dislike me.

Now by age 16, he has successfully repressed me. I have a frighteningly few friends at church, and the majority has a very bad view of me, quite contrary to my life outside of church. Everytime I go to church, I have to deal with S-unbae/ik and his cronies as they talk behind my back (or directly), make up stupid stories about me, and spread rumors with no truth in them. S-unbae/ik somehow was lucky enough to join his school's lacrosse team, and he is using that as a way to get to the kids at my school and tell them how stupid I am. I cannot feel normal and act myself at church. I cannot be myself. I cannot be the real me. I cannot be myself because of S-unbae/ik and all the things that have gone wrong. Because of my low status at church, everyone at church thinks that I have no friends, which is entirely not true. They think I am some emo kid who nobody likes. I bear the comments they make with no emotion, but really, I have been in constant psychological pain for the past 5 years. Basically, my life at church is miserable.

I have often considered moving churches. There are other churches that I could go, but I cannot go, because I do not have my own car, and my parents are unwilling to drive to that church, drop me off, and then go to the regular church.

On the contrary, my life outside of church is great. I chill with my friends a lot, do lots of cool shit, and just have a great time. I'm a regular Jekyl and Hyde. Happy, energetic, and outgoing outside of church, and secluded, forlorn, and rejected at church. I feel really awkward when I step into the church building. Everyone calls church a "family." I can see where this could be true, but, currently, it is not for me.

I keep on telling myself, I only have 2 more years till college. Only 2 more years. And yet, 2 years is 2 years. 2 years is a lot of time. 2 years is a long time to be made fun of constantly.

I feel that most of the friends I have outside of church are more "Christian" than some of the ones inside my church. Most of my friends have better morals than people at my church such as S-unbae/ik and his accomplices in lowering self esteem.

I feel the best way to resolve this is to become friends with S-unbae/ik. I have tried, and each try as failed. I also tried to initiate some sort of come back, some sort of revenge. That also failed because of my conscience. I don't really know what to do. I don't want it to stay this way for 2 years. What would you do?

I didn't make the golf team. =(. Now I either have to go back to stinky PE. I might have the option of practising with the team, without actuallay being on the team, which i hope will happen.

while im ranting and raving, let me tell you about the thing that happened today. we had a earthquake drill, cause here in california, there are some earthquakes that happen like once every 5 years. well the bell went off. we all got under our desks, and covered our head. now someone tell me this: how in the world is our body supposed to be protected by these desks? have u looked at a school tesk recently. its a plastic chair welded to a fake wood looking platform, which juts our about a foot and a half. if you press on the top half of the desk, ull tip the damn thing! how is that flimbsy piece of monkey butt supposed to protect my skull??? there is no way! and yet, we all put our heads under the desk, and cover our heads.

and then my teacher was pointing to the glass windows, and said that if those shattered, glass would shoot out 10 feet, and maim (and possible kill) every kid 10 feet away from the windows (me.) the marvolous solution brought by the administration was this: don't face the window! That way, the arteries in your neck and your spinal cord gets slashed! How very flipping ingenious! I could have never thought of that! Along with covering my head! Wow!

Someone tell me that the system (school administration) sucks.

okay. u guys remember my rant about kumon right? well, if you dont, you can find it here. Make sure u read that before anything.

so i was sitting next to two UGLY girls. sorry for anyone that is very politically correct or something. if u are politically correct, or just wierd, stop reading.

so i was sitting. the one on the left was this wierd girl that looked like that one girl from the Incredibles. She was some emo vietamnese girl with a name "nu pham" or something of the like. and she was like around 13ish. and she had stuffed her bra or whatever with paper, so it looked like she was in puberty and it seemed like she had boobs on her chest! and she kept on scratching her chest, and that rustling, crackly paper noise always came up. i was trying to do my boring classwork, and this little rustlinig sound always came up. whenever anyone looked at her when she was doing it, she glared. the scratching was bugging the heck out of me!

the one on the right was immensily fat. She was about a foot away from me, and yet, her blubber sorta filled her seat and the outlying area, which basically means, it was sorta covering me. and she was wearing a tank top (ughhh) and so basically it was really scary.

gotta go. later. im gonna go hide

There is now integrated Google Talk in Gmail. This is neat because now you can chat while looking through your mail. No need to open up new windows or tabs. Another neat thing about this is that when you point your cursor over a contact, it will tell you the name, email, and other nifty information, along with buttons that let you email that person, and gTalk with that person. All in all, gmail has been improved a lot.

I think Gmail is the best email program out there. Screw hotmail and yahoo. Gmail all the way. Gmail is simple, and there are no stupid ads. It is simple, straight-forward, and easy to use. There is POP, and pretty much everything else.

Yahoo sucks cause the name is so dorky. Hotmail sucks because the name is so idiotic. And AOL sucks cause...it is 3 random letters put together.

Hello. Well I see that this blog has reached 1050 viewers! yay.

I have some questions for my readers. what good movies are there on dvd? I'll tell yall why i want them when i get some responses.

What's up with lacoste???

One of my friends is really into lacoste. lacoste this. lacoste that. i hate lacoste, cause he loves it soooo much.

"hey peter, im gonna get a lacoste track jacket." "hey peter, check out this polo!" "hey peter, like the shirt?" Shut up.

And finally, he got a YELLOW ugly as shit lacoste shirt which is at least 2 sizes too big for him that he probably got off ebay. what a loser.

lacoste is overpriced bullshit. there is a stupid alligator on it. AN ALLIGATOR. !#@%@? why and alligator?> alligators are ugly, and they are green. as kermit once said, "its hard being green." so, basically, the aligator is a stupid logo for lacoste. why not something more sophisticated? Like the polo logo, or the apple logo.

basically what im getting at is that lacoste stinks. matt if your reading this, why dont you take your pale piss coloured lacoste and cut the bottom off so that it at least fits.

I just had some of Burger King's fries. On the fries "bucket" there is this note on it. It says, "Eat these fries anyway it turns you on."

Sorry Burger King, fries do not turn me on. You guys are retarded. The fries were stale. The burger sucked. And you marketing logo, "Have it your way," is retarded.

"Have it your way???" What if i dont want to have it MY way? What if i wanted to have it my friends way or my aunt's way? Huh? What if i wanted it not my way, and yet coorelate with my way along with Tiger Wood's way? Huh? Huh? Cant answer that can you??? Yeah I thought so.

Cause "Booger King" sucls.

Isn't that neat? Go to http://crcw.mb.ca/php3/ledsign/ledsign.php to have your message show up in someone's house...

I just got a complete schedule change. I now have a way easier spanish teacher, and a wacko math teacher.

I've heard some strange stuff about this math teacher. Like how she doesn't teach anything. Like how she teaches the lesson, after the test. Like how for the first 20 minutes of class are spent waiting for her to stop talking to her assistants. I've heard that she is anorexic. I've heard she can't get a C-section if she wanted to because she is so skinny.

Her age ranges too. Some say 30. Some say 60. Some say 4,304,230. (and im serious.) Her hobbies vary. Some say she plays basketball. Some say she likes to dance. Some say she likes to eat secretly eat belgian chocolates while teaching.

Whatever the reason, I have learned something...that this teacher is off her rocker. That's why I plan to sit in the very back of the room, hiding behind a huge precalculus book, and listen to my iPod.


Song of the Day (STD)- "Bliss"- Muse

I was at the library, studying with my friends for finals, and I see this mother running around. She asked the [overweight] security guard if he had seen her daughter. He said no, and that set off a huge reaction where there were 5+ librarians and 10+ other people combing the library, looking for this little girl. They were all looking in the most random places though.

They were looking in the bookshelves, (the girl was i think 8 years old), in trash cans,...everywhere. The police came, the usual. When my mom came to pick me up, I heard someone say that the girl was at school, but it didnt seem like it was true...

I'm not sure.

I think she was "kidnapped." I don't know.

The library is a dangerous place. You could get smashed by a falling book. You could be battered by the air conditioning. You could get a paper cut on some dictionary. The shelves could topple onto you. You might trip down the stairs and break your neck. Some huge wind could come and break the glass, and the glass might go into your lung....

Go to libraries at your own risk...

Hi Hi. I just finished my first day of finals. dont even get me started. im over it. dont ask.

lets just say that it stunk.

on a lighter note, i had the best 5 rolled tacos of my life for lunch. chicken. corn torillas. hot sauce. fresh guacamole.

got completely new teachers for 2nd semester. some are good. some are bad.

running for junior class president soon.

golf tryouts soon.

and the 30 hour famine soon. (I'm the leader) ill give u a post on that later. right now, i havta study for european history. i heard that the average grade was a 57%. ohhhhh boy.


Song of the Day (STD)- "Dirty Little Secret" - All American Rejects.